As everyone knows, I am a happy-go-lucky kinda girl. I laugh my ass off && just enjoy. When I am happy, I really
AM happy. Not just putting a show on. But I have my fair share of problems in life. Well, My family background is not exactly a sad story but it's not much of a happy family kinda thing as well. I'll keep it personal but I live with my mum alone. When it comes to friends, I am
not likely to trust one fully on the spot. I will be friendly to some but to others, I'm just a mere snob. Still, when I decide to have faith in one, I give my all. && this is what happened to a few dear boys of mine. Just when I thought that life would always remain as it is, dull, boring and so on, they appeared magically out of the blues. && so begins the not-so-tragic but sad story of my life.
These boys showed me the meaning of happiness. That there is wonders around every corner of the world. Especially when you least expects it. So there I was wandering the surface of this earth, searching until I met them. They were typical young boys. Those who love to have fun. Like they say, boys will always be boys. && they were great boys. I grew close to them and apparently got
TOO comfortable with them. Their presence just
soothes me. Their faces makes mine glow with enduring smiles and their actions are just as entertaining. They have very different characteristics but they are each unique and special and I love them for who they are really. I will not expose their names here in fear that I might oppose anyone but I will define their characters at the end of this blog.
There were many moments where we shared together. It is very enduring in my mind. As fresh as if it just happened yesterday. These boys also known as Y & Z, they are always there for me. Most of the time, they would appear at Masjid Jamek just to meet me. They made me feel so special and adored.
*smiles* We went to the summer splash event 2008. Although we did not spend the day together, a few hours with them are simply enough to satisfy me. Then there was this MSSMKL. Y & Z actually took the effort to bring me there and get me in while everyone has to pay. Y do most of the planning while Z gave me his shirt. Back then, the shirt was like a free ticket. The way they sacrifice for me is touching. Even the slightest action shows how much they are trying to make me happy. Every minute spent with them are magical. All that a girl like me could ever wished for :)
I love them dearly.
But as we know,
The ones whom you love most will always be the ones to hurt you the most.
What can I say?
ALL GOOD THINGS COMES TO AN END!SO basically, now i'm trying my very best to pull things together and make things as it was before but chances are slim and I'm actually lying to myself. Obviously things will never be the same. I've changed, they've changed. But what we
HAD (past tense) will never dissapear.
Y: I remember exactly how I met him. It was during a birthday of a dear brother of mine where I spotted him. Then I took his number and texted him while I was just 2 seats away from him at IU day in his school. "
BIBIR HOT" I said, && thus began our friendship. He was amazing. Calls me everynight, happy or sad, he was always there. He's always the one trying to set things up so that we can all meet and spend time together. Haha, he even bought me many things, you know, clothes, bags :S Once during MERDEKA, I celebrated in curve with my friends. He actually came all the way with his friends to wait for me to enjoy && after that actually bring me home. Isn't that sweet? He actually takes good care of me. I spent the night at his place where I sleep on the living room floor and he sleeps on the couch to accompany me. That's not something everyone would do too. I enjoy his company and I enjoy his presence. Now that things are changing, I don't really get his calls anymore. In fact, it's hard to meet up even if I happen to be in front of his school gate.
Z: He is dearly adored by me && he knows that. Till now, I still can't really get over him but it's alright, I'll pull through. He meant alot to me. In fact, I actually changed because of him. It makes sense though, when you care about someone too much, you just lose yourself. With him, he is always with Y. Both doing their best to make me happy && I'll never forget that. I never taken them for granted but if things were meant to be, it will be. He gave me his shirt. Lol, nothing much I can say about him, just drag on and on about how much he meant to me. People eclose to me will know how high his value is in my life. We actually had a saying together.
"
ISYMTYSI". Yes, sounds sweet but
it's bullshit! :)
Anyways, I blog about them is to release all my love for them into his blog, where I can actually take foot into letting them go, and taking life as it is. If they just can't seem to take me as I am and to appreciate me, then I bid them farewell as my plans in life are bigger and better for a new start. Their presence will leave a mark in me. Like the holes on the surface of the moon made by falling meteors. In this case, I'm the moon and they're the meteors :D They came and they left. It's better if they never came at the first place no? But it's alright. One day, they'll learn the difference of having me in life and not having me.
P/S: I love you both, but I'm tired of being the only one trying all the time. <33
xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.
