Pissed! Oh so *insert vulgar word* PISSED!

Hah! I am pissed and not to say MAD right off the bloody roof! Gosh, to think that I actually became such a total idiot. Oh gosh! How could you do this to me over and over again? I mean, do I look like i'm not worth your attention or your business? All this while you've only kept me waiting. Since bloody fucking christmas! I waited on the two items. Patiently and all, I cancles plans and stuff for meetings only to come and find out that you said there's been a glitch. Okay fine, i'm still cool with it. But then when I made order for a piece I wanted for CHINESE FUCKING NEW YEAR! Ypu told me there's a last piece. && I made the fucking order! It was supposed to be mine! You told me that the stock came, and ask when we can meet. Hah! I actually emailed you time and all by SEEING that you ARE ONLINE! Yeaps, no reply. Fine. && so I waited for a reply to the extend that I fucking sms-ed you! Guess what, you replied with another number and ask who I am. When I told you. *crickets sound* You didn't bother to reply. Nice huh? I lingered around the place man. You could at least sms and tell me you sold it off. Or you could have told me earlier when I texted you. Why do you have to do things this way? So i'm not human now is it? All you care is about earning money and not caring if some other chick who is suppose to get the fucking piece is waiting out there for your reply? Came home and guess what I got?

"Sorry babe, I sold the last piece to my buyer yesterday".


Well,FUCK YOU!

I'm pissed, so don't bother.
xoxo, hatefully yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Talk About Creativity

This is something miss Jo asked us to watch and I find this very very cool and creative. So i'mma share it here.

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Plea For Understandings

Let's see, how exactly am I going to explain this? Mhm, well this is very hard for me but, oh well.
Okayy, I understand that many times I might have given the wrong signs, signals and all. And yes, many a times, I may have given hope and lead people on. But I SWEAR that I mean no harm. I dare defend myself by saying that I have given warnings from the very beginning as to NOT EXPECT anything, as well as NOT MISINTERPRETE my signs. I am a very very very disturbed girl -.-"

It's not that I don't like you sweeties. I do. In fact, I like you ALOT. But, fact is. That is all I can feel about ANYONE now. I can only like them either a little bit or a lot. But I am not capable of feeling LOVE. At least not for now. It's hard to you know, open up and just accept people into your life and into your heart after so many tragedies. I hope all you out there understand what I mean. I just want to be close to you. Friendly manner if possible. I did not ask for your affection nor did I ask for your love and sacrifice. Because I know, I am not able to give that back in return. All I'm asking is that you will all stand by me. Be my friend, a shoulder to cry on. For THAT is what I need more then ever. What I need is someone I can trust on. Not someone who will be expecting the world from me.

Therefore, I hope that before it's too late, before things get deeper and harder. That I am able to save our friendship and whatever we've got before it's too late. But if you ever choose to leave, I shall not stand in your way. As I have already take departure as a part of a routine in my life.

All in all, I pray and hope for you're understandings.

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

The Strength To Carry On

Many people go through heartaches. That I am aware of. And many times, we will fall and stand back up on our own two feets for a second try or a third or fourth and so it goes. But there will be a time, where it is no longer endurable. It just seems pointless to mend your broken heart only for it to get shattered once again. Come to think of it, why try in the first place? I used to think that LOVE is like MAGIC. I used to believe that love and passion is more than enough for you to survive, others you can manage little by little. But then, this perception has changed. I then realized that it is all only behind the screens. Love, well it exist. And those who found them and shares them with a significant other, I congratulate you whole heartedly. But for me, I am simply blinded by the fact that it is a major pain in the organ -.-" It's not like I haven't tried. It's not like I don't want to find it. It just that it never happens to me. Or at least, it never lasts for them. So heck, why bother right? For those who are out there, looking for love, over and over again. Being persistant and not willing to give up, I wish you all the best && I strongly envy you for having the strength to carry on. I, myself have already given up.

At night, when I lie in bed. I still think of you && why you left :'(
Oh yes, you wound me && I miss you, :(

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Typical Updates =/

I know I havent updated in like, weeks. So it's updates now. Firstly, college. The main reasons that have kept me away from blogging is my exams. Happy to inform that it is finally over! There goes my late night studies :D Hahaha, and urgh, the last minute assignments are like screwd up. But maybe i'll post up a few of my photography pictures in the next few post. Just to share (:

Now second, I have signed up for church seminars on wednesdays and I'm currently trying to get MORE involved with the church, their events, seminars and have a stronger walk with God. I'd say, so far so good though I could have put more effort in it which I am working on.

I kinda put on much weight last year. Fretting about, doing nothing. Just eating and sleeping and watching TV. Gosh, I do sound like a PIGGY (: Haha, anyways. I am back in cheerleading. Thought my age is way pass the highschool team, but that marks not the end of my cheerleading days. I am now in EMAS. Extreme Malaysia All-Star. Extremely awesome team. We have fun together and we have serious practices as well. So that's another new activity I've got involved in this year.

Then, downloads. Muahahaha, I found TWO websites that gives me free full version downloads of games. && guess what am I currently downloading? You got that right! NANCY DREW!!! (: The greatest games ever. Talking about downloads, I've been downloading some movies from youtube. Old old cartoons that triggers memories of me and my dad :( "The Princess & The Goblins". Nice cartoons.

Lastly, when it comes to musics, I strongly recommend "The Divine Madness". Totally awesome stuff. (:

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Resistance

I was looking online for new beautiful heels and look what I stumbled upon. The effects of wearing TOO MUCH heels. Ouch man!! But yet again, look!

How can you resist her? ♥

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Shoe Evolution XD

Thought of the day, DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS IS? Is it a door stopper? or is it a vase? Or maybe it's a book holder? Mhm, a stationary box? I knoww, it's a coin box!

Well, tought luck cause that's a FOLDABLE HIGH HEEL -.-"

Haha, as we know shoes, especially ladies shoes are getting more weirder and more uncommon.

Firstly, these are something I clearly have not came upon to before.

And this!! I mean, I understand that the metallic colours are becoming a trend but who in their right mind would WEAR this? This, this, METAL!


Then there are these babies. Well, they are more normal than the others but trust me, these aren'y shoes! These are MURDER WEAPONS! Whoever created the name for them had definitely experienced it. "Killer Heels" we call them -.-"

Ahh, the "Stripper Heels", hahaha, I honestly don't know why they're called that but heck, these one's beautiful alright. Maybe a tee-wee to high for me but still amazing.

Wooden chuncks (: The newest trend this is. I mean, most heels now are have that heart thingy at the back or its made of wood, but yeaaa, the height of this one kinda ruined the whole thing.

The Heel-less High Heels? Err.. let's just say whoever can walk in these for a whole day truely gains my respects (:

Well the graphics are nice I guess but heck I would NEVER EVER wear this. Come on, it's GHASTLY :S

Now that's more like it (: The most normal one this evening.

Last but not least, for those girls who have a boyfriend or husband who are a total car-lover, maybe you can transmit their eternal love, passion and their willing-ness to spend thousands and millions of cash on their car into a passion and love to buy you ladies MORE LOVELY HEELS! It only makes sense since it's mutual that way. We ladies get new shoes and they get to spend their money on cars. Just that .....

It's more of a SHOE-CAR than a CAR-CAR (: haha, the new Lamborgini Heels (:

xoxo, ever yours,
a total shoe geek,
Virginie Laurency.

A Bad Start :(

The new year had barely just begun && I'm already having a bad start. This is SOOOOOOO frustrating :( Each year I kept hearing the same phrase over and over again. "Just wait till next year, things will change", "oh, just wait a little more, I'm sure everything will be better", " Just bare with me a little more. Next year, we'll have a fresher start". Pfft, you know what?! BULLSHIT! I'm tired of hearing reassuring words. Come on la, I'm 18 years old, I'm not a kid you can leave in the dark. Turn better they say, but yet why is it somewhat getting worst? I have already been holding myself back from spending. Okay fine, there are many things that I want in life, but due to the so called "little problem", we've got to stretch our finance a little bit to cover up for survival. Fine, I can take that. But from one month lead to another and another and soon another. I could have gotten my car like since october. It's free you know, so it was supposed to be like my birthday present. For a second hand (don't know how many generation passed down), it's in an awesome condition. Very very good engine, strong metals and it's size is just perfect for me. Not too big, not too small. It's BLOODY FREE!! But yet we had to wait. FOR WHAT?! It's been ready for 3 months. Now?!? New complications. Expired road tax and expired insurance that we could NOT afford for right now. Almost everything also cannot afford. Fine fine, no car, wait another year, nevermind. But it's like, dude!! To know that one, we still in debt and I have to stretch for yet another month, which trust me, will lead to another and another. It's like once and for all take everything away from me. I thought if I were to be patient, things would really start off better this year. It's been quite a few months now, I see things that makes me go ga-ga, that makes my knees weak and not be able to buy them. That I can actually just LUST for them. I know this is very meterial thinking but we're living in a material world. There is no escaping. && I'm not exactly those type of people who go and swipe your mom's credit card till it's left with nothing. I am the kind who saves up my own money with my own effort to buy the things I like. But how am I to do that when the we're even having problems to give me my allowance for me to save up in the first place?? I guess where we're headed is not a situation I will like, but eventually I'd settle for it if I was either warned/prepared or if it was to be cut down bit by bit. This is like BOMB! VIRGINIE YOU'RE BROKE!! So basically now no money for road tax, no money for insurance, no money to pay debts, no money for college fees (if PTPTN decideds to shit on us), no money for nice lunch/dinner, no money for entertainment which means no more movie night, no more dvds, no money for new clothes. WHAT THE HELL, i've been waiting to buy new undergarments for months!! This seriously sucks!! It sucks just so so badddd!! :'( I am just so frustrated right now. Mommy kept asking me not to worry about our finacials. But heck, I'm already feeling the pinch and it's a BIG sore!

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Welcome 2010!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I am glad to say that as the new year approach (which it already did), I have stepped further away from 2009. And with it, I will leave behind all the heartaches I have encountered, all the dissapointments I have felt, all the unfortunate events that had occured, all the tears that I have shed, all the troubles I have gone through, && all the obstacles I have overcome. For this is a new and promising year. A year blessed by the Lord for I have lay down my life before him. This year, I will be a better student in college, a better friend to the many people I know, a better daughter to my mother && a better blessing to the nation. For this is the year where the good will arise and the bad be oppressed! And so, to begin a wonderful new journey, I shall first list down the goals I have for this year.

Goals for 2010:-

SPIRITUALLY
Firstly,I want to make a habit in reading His word daily. To draw closer to the Lord in prayers and in worship. I have decided that this is the day I begin to make a difference first in myself.
" Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path" Psalm 119:105

Secondly, I would not make excuses to myself but to give more unto the Lord. I will choose to help out more at church and to be more dedicated as well as committed into the worship ministry.

PHYSICALLY
I would like to achive better health. In which I have decided to put more effort in jogging. I would watch over my diet as in, less junk food, less carbonated drinks, less donuts&cupcakes. Oh and, I want to lose a few weight.

EMOTIONALLY
I have made up my mind, once again, that this year I will not get involve in any relationship which I am not ready for. It is going to be a tough one but it will take much effort. I will stay away from possible heartaches and unnecessary headache.

I have also decided that I will put myself before others. Whatever I do, I will want to be happy about my decisions. I will not involve myself in things that I am not happy to begin with.

Lastly, I will do more activities that I will enjoy. Such as reading more books, watching more movies and definitely MORE (balanced) SHOPPING!! Window and non-window that is.

MENTALLY
I will choose to stay cheerful at all times and to be calm through all things. For every frown I own, i'll try to turn it upside-down cause in every smile lays hope. I will make sure that my thoughts will always be of positive things and that I will constantly stay optimistic. I will choose to stay away from negative thinking and thoughts of the enemy. I shall make pure my mind for it will be a mind filled with the love of God.

EDUCATIONALLY
I am going to put much more effort in learning French again. This time, I will not give up for I have a strong influence and a very very strong strive to achieve this goal. These are non other than the other side of my family whom I love dearly and missed just so much.

I will make sure I get my sewing classes and maybe take up dance classes (:

I will definitely put much more effort in my studies at college and finish up my assignment not at a last-minute thing.

FINANCIALLY
I have decided to start saving up money. I will put aside my money for emergency splurges or any other kind of emergencies. Oh && that means less shopping to make it easier ;D

I might have to take a part-time job and start working & studying at the same time. This is so I can earn my own money to maybe pay for the car insurance and petrol (:

TIME MANAGEMENT
I will organize my time perfectly this year with the help of an organizer. I have decided that time is indeed gold and therefore I shall make good use of them. && also to help me finish up my work and not having to stress myself in rushing last minute works.

RELATIONSHIP
Firstly, I will work to make my relationship with my mother a more peaceful one. Where we would bond more and take time to understand each other.

Next, I will choose to spend more time with my family. To have fun together and to just enjoy each others company. Nice and sweet quality time.

Then, I will work out my relationship with my cousins, Eleonore, Maud & Theophile. To get to know the better and closer.

I will put more effort in writing to my grandparents and to ensure them that I still love them even thought I am far across the Red Sea.

Following, I will be more available to the people I care about. Friends whom I have not been too close with in 2009 such as:-
Insyira, Aida, Syira, Ashela, Tyka, Zaza, Weyna, Kroll, Rose, Nashuha, Izzy, Chenelle, Elle, Adelin, Annaliza, Aamyra, Kathleen, Nadia, Sabrina, Fareed.
And to be closer to those who still cares and wants to spend quality time together such as:
Asif, Akif, Razin, Hafis, Faliiq, Jarrel, Irsyad, Faizal, Alif, Aish, HafizSyaz (:

Lastly, I would love to fellowship more with churchmates and CG members as well as the Youth in which together we burn a fire for the Lord.


These are the goals I have set for myself in this new year 2010. I will discipline myself to achieve these goals and therefore, I will be a new and better person. So, I bid 2009 farewell and hello hello 2010!

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.