Broken Ego!

Honey, with you I don't give shit about my ego. I don't care if people make fun of me. I don't care if I seem really desperate. I just don't want to lose you && I won't let my ego get in the way! :'(

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Broken Family?

It never quite occur to me that the FAMILY issue would be such a big hit on me. Four almost 14 years now I've lived life since my parents separated. I never really took time to think about things. Could it be that I really didn't have time to think of such things? Is it because I never had the thought pass me by or AM I AVOIDING IT every time, every chance I get? I don't quite know how to describe this feeling. It's like the road of my life is filled with gutters. Each time I fall, I feel ever as lonely as I ever did before. Somehow, when I look around, all I see is something alien to me. How does it really feel like to HAVE a family? How does it feels like to be able to eat at the table with everyone for dinner every night? How does it feels like watching football with your dad? Or the feeling of playing dolls with your kid sister? Fighting with you're brother over the television? Having girls talk with your mother? Advertising in class had an advert about this woman who lost the husband, whom which tell others to appreciate the person you love for even the slightest things. When I thought of this, or should I say, when I saw this, I really wanted to run home and hug my mom, hug my dad && tell them that I love them. Yet when I came home, I wondered. Where's my dad all this while? Where was he when I first went to school? Where was he when my heart got broken? Where was he when I was lost in choices of the world? Where was he when I needed the love of a FATHER??!?! I'm not saying that I don't have a dad. I'm not saying that my dad don't love me. But, WHERE IS HE all this while?? I never got to spend time with him. I never got the chance to do things every other kids does with their dad. In fact, the many times I saw him ever since the divorce, I could count them with my fingers.
1) When he came to Malaysia to introduce his new wife.
2) When he came to bring me to Pulau Tioman.
3) When he came with my stepsister to Sunway Lagoon.
4) When I went back to France during winter holidays in standard 2000.
5) When I went back for summer holidays in 2004.
Only five times. That's how many times I've met him since I was 4 years old.
You might say that it's not so bad. At least I still have my mum. Which is true. She's been with me for 18 years now. && yes, she's taken care of me and all but come to think of it. Things are different now. When I was younger, she might have been able to take me for who I am. It's so called responsibility. But what about now? Things are really changing at home. && I don't like it! I DON'T LIKE HOW HOME FEELS TO ME! Home is where the heart is they say. Yet somehow, my heart is never at home. In fact home is one of the last place I will ever want to be. It feels ever so lonely here. For years now, my home has been more of a battle field that a shelter of love and warmth. All we do is fight. All we do is hurt & be hurt! Things are so wrong now. My mum is so caught up into being a MOTHER, she forgotten that what I need is also a FRIEND! From what I feel, she's only providing me with the basic needs. Food, Clothe, Shelter && Money. We don't talk much now. In fact, we don't see much of each other even when we're under the same roof. What happened now? Where is my mother? Where is my father?
If I could have a week, just one magical week to be able to spend time with my mom & dad, I would be very contented with life. All I ever wanted is to be able to come how from school/college and just sit down and watch a movie with my parents. I want to be able to bake cakes and cookies with my mum. I want to dance to silly songs with my dad. I'd like to be whole. To be loved. To know that whatever happens, my family will be right behind me. That my family would be my backbone. These are dreams too far to reach.
Honestly speaking, many of times I feel like I don't belong. Where else could I go? What else could I do? Thus, this is the story of my life.

p/s: When I look around at my friends, I am jealous of the relationship they share with their family!

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

(: pea-brain

I'm currently having the brain capasity of a racoon. So ciaoz.

xoxo, ever yours
Virginie Laurency.

Losers!!!

You're a Loser!!
Wait no,, I'm the Loser!!
Heck, at least I'm a rockin' Loser
While,
you're a slimy gumball loser!!
Bwahahahahaha,

p/s: sorry. Going through some mental breakdown. Bear with me a moment,

xoxo, ever yours,
Loving Loser, Virginie Laurency!

Cheer-Freakitty-Toot!

I Friggin' Miss CHEERLEADING!!!!

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Shut Down & Restart (:

I've been going through a hell of a time. My curiosity towards WHY I am treated the way I was is like a virus. No! it's like a Disease. A CRONIC Disease. Ones who's killing you softly and silently. lol -dramatic much. But heck, naim's been listening to me cry lately. && true to what he said. That jackass is consuming me and I don't like it! Therefore, it's time to shut the hell down. Shut this freakin' feelings down && restart my rockin' life. I'll show you! I'll prove to you that I can be as happy as I was before you. In fact, I'll show you how much BETTER it is without you here!

Gahhh, toodles loser! <3

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Computer Graphics.

COMPUTER GRAPHICS IS AWESOME!

So, the first assignment was already hard enough. Drawing the eagle, butterfly & lotus icons. But heck, we got an even harder 2nd assignment. Pfft, all in all, it was super challenging but yet very very fun and enjoyable. I actually finished it like what?? ALREADY! hahahaha, Mr.Low gave us our vector drawing assignment TODAY && I finished it in what, just 10 hours! Damn i'm proud && God, i'm super exhausted, so yeaaa, nights.

*clicky to enlarge*

P/S: This is a SYOK-SENDIRI post. Due to stress && lack of sleep ;D

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Cupcake Heaven!

I'm at college and currently waiting for time to pass. I'm super hungry, so,

LET'S DROOOOOOOLL!!

Puppy cakeee.

Safari cupcakes.

People cakes.

For pool lovers.

Super Mario Cuppies

Pac man yummies.

&& my faves, ROBOTIC CUPPIECAKES

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Let's Make A Change!

I'm interested in helping the women who just gets abused. I'm also interested to help children who are abandoned or neglected. To be able to give them love and care the way everyone deserves to be treated. I'd like to go environmental. I think the word GREEN is really really refreshing && that it's important to make the world a better place. The world today are results of our manly actions and I believe we could put a stop to it by going GREEN (: Save mother nature, Save the world. Besides that, I would like to stand up for creatures big & small who are unable to speak for themselves. Animals such as dogs and cats should be given a good home. Tigers, Elephants, Turtles. These beautiful creatures have as many rights to live as we, human do. They contribute to the balance of the ecosystem. I am interested in bringing life and meaning to those who lose hope in life. To the blinds, dumb and deaf. I'd love to let them know that the world is a magical place and life is awesome even with it's ups and downs. Last but not least, I'd like to stand up against violence. World peace is important to slow down the end of the world. Everyone is meant to show love and care. Not to make other lives miserable.

Lets stand up against violence upon women.

Protect these innocents from further abuse.

Save them from extinction. Give them a chance to live.

Fight against domestic violence. Fight for world peace.

So here I am.

I speak for the love of all woman, I speak for the innocence of all children, I speak for the beauty of nature, I speak for the knowledge of the underprivileged, I speak for the hope of the living, I speak for the rights of the law && I speak for everyone who breathes air.

MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE!

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Warning!

Sweet talkers && unloyal losers, this is what you really DESERVE!

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Steamin' Hot <3

Introducing these steamin' babies. They're simply AWESOME && they're The Saturdays!







See? Aren't they good?

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Mystery Game

In Communication English class yesterday, we played a CSI, mystery solving game where we're suppose to figure out the story line && the reason. So this is how it went. The question, then i'll tell the story. && maybe ass my own salt & pepper.

QUESTION:

A man entered the train and sat down at an empty corner except for a lady. The lady then took off her gloves. A few hours later, the man was arrested by the police but was then realeased several hours later leagally & freely. Why was the man released?

CLUE:

Garden
Lover
30 years ago
Vanished

Basically, by the end of the game, this is what we figured out.
THE STORYLINE (:

The man, Andy && the lady, Debby were highschool sweethearts. They were deeply in love and so, they got married. AS the years passed, their relationship became dull and boring. The sparks and excitements are gone. Therefore, Debby had an affair with Paul. Things between them got really kinky until one fine day, Andy caught them red-handed. He was furious && so things between him and Debby are complicated and fragile. Andy lost trust in Debby and this pisses her off. So one day, when Andy was at work, Debby cut her ring finger with her wedding ring on and left the finger in the garden. She then ran away with Paul to somewhere rural. Soon, when Andy returned, he was immediately captured by the cops and he was sentenced 20 years in jail for the murder of his wife. That was 30 years ago. Today, when he was in the train, he couldn't recognize that the lady in the glove is actually his wife, Debby. It was only until she removed her gloves that Andy saw the finger. He was so mad, he killed Debby right there and then in the train. The police then captured him but he was then set free. Why? It's simply because, Andy was sentenced 20 years of jail for something he did not do. Debby framed him as she dissapeared with Paul. Now that he already did his time, he was set free immediately for the crime he was accuse for 30 years ago.


Ain't this super cool?

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

SORRY!

Deepest appologies from the pit bottom of my heart.
I know I may not be a simple person.
Definitely not ONE to be easily understandable.
I'd like to appologize for the many things that I might have said unknowingly hurting or pissing someone off.
I'd like to appologize for the way I'm acting which might get in the nerves of many.
I know I've done wrong now, && i'm gonna make up to it.
Once again, deepest sorry to the hearts I've broken && to egos I've wounded.
Lastly, sorry to people who were just being nice but get the shittiness from me.

sincerely always.

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

I'd Kill You, BUT, Revenge Is Sweeter

After all the pain you've put me through,
Honey I should have put a bullet through your head.
It's not because I'm mean,
It's not because I'm cold.
It's because you turned me into someone I don't know.
I won't hurt you,
I won't kill you.
Baby, I'd let someone do my dirty job.
&& soon enough you will see,
That no one was better for you than me.
Sadly there is no turning back,
Cause' my hearthas gone through cracks.
I'll take it all && keep it in,
& soon enough it you i'll see.
On your knees with pleading eyes,
Cut the crap, it's no disguise.
She'll break your heart for me, you see.
Unknowingly she's done the job for me.
And when you're down in agony,
I'll be here in victory.
One sentence for you that's all I'll say,
REVENGE is sweeter than you ever were to be.

You never realized how much you've made me go through. But maybe it's time you get a taste of your own medicine. When she dump you, baby don't come crawling back to me. Just cause you realize that I was the one whom gave the world for you doesn't mean that it's not too late. How cruel you were to me, that I can never forget. Because when I gave you my heart, you threw it away. I'm happy that you're in pain. I'm happy that soon enough you will see how much you have NOT given to me.

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

Here We Go Again,

So, college life is practically so much more fun & games then the usual,

PUSH PUSH STUDY STUDY

lifestyle. We have amazing lecturers who teaches amazing topics. The rules aren't as strict as the rules in high school and that makes all the difference. Well, let me lay out some of the rules that we are currently FREE of right now (:

HIGH SCHOOL V/S COLLEGE

1) Must wear uniform = No more uniform
2) No extra piercings = Wear all your piercings
3) No handphone = Hello handphone, hello laptop (:
4) No food & drinks = No food & drinks *but who cares?*

Lol, basically we're free to do anything. So this is what me and my friends do in class (:

one word ; CAMWHORE!!

well, except for me, I'm camwhoring & eating at the same time (:

Meet Vanessa, Joshua & Carleen

&& now we're joined by Augustus & Prince

Slowly, the whole class is coming, EeZhen, Zakry & SuanYin decided to join us.

Lastly, me & my SURESH! ahhahahaha Joshua Kyle, he is the best dude in class so far.

xoxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.