Self-inflicted Stress

Now. RIGHT NOW, I feel extremely stressed.

The whole idea of me being out of school/college. I mean, I guess I haven't fully grasp the whole idea but time ain't stopping for me till I realize that I'm wasting my time.

Pfft, I need to start making plans. Yes girl, you and your plans!! You used to have lots of it. What happened? I know your family plannings are still there, but what about your career? Just cause the past few paths you decided to follow didn't work out does not mean you should give up.

"If there's a wall in your path, you knock it over" - Captain Haddock, The Adventures of Tintin.

That's a good quote.

Mhm, perhaps I should wake up now. Mom's right. I'm a dreamer and all I do is dream. I guess it's time to take life by it's neck and show em' who's boss! That's right.

Let's start by working out a plan. Even if it's a short term plan, we'll work it out. *psst, make sure you have backup plans and a backup plan for your backup plan*

Now, to destress myself, let's play a game then a nice warm shower. TOMORROW, WE PLAN!

You Can Change The World.

Let's do our part in saving the world

Help me share this around please. This is an awareness campaign to help fight against hunger. Would be awesome if you guys could help me spread the word and share a minute or two to like this page. Please and thank you ♥

Food is a luxury. Not everyone have these kind of luxury.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Project-Lets-Fight-against-Hunger/135383886566595?sk=wall

Fate.

Face it.

Some things are just not meant to be. No matter how much you wish for it to be.

Love.

Love. It doesn't always have to be between lovers. Just saying. But love is a raw feeling that will be refined in time. All it needs is a little TLC. Love. Sometimes, I just wish there would be ONE person in life who would never give up on me. Someone who will always love me no matter how many times I screw up. No matter how embarrassing I may be. Sometimes, I just wish that there would be ONE person who will LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM.

Perhaps one day, I shall be able to find love in the most hopeless place. Perhaps one day, I might not even care anymore.

I Am Beautiful. Always.

♥ yourself.

"Cause when it all boils down at the end of the day, it's what you do and say that makes you who you are today. Makes you think about it, think about it. Doesn't it? Sometimes, all it takes is just one voice." - Natasha Bedingfield

Yes. You are who you are and you should not regret your past. No ghost of the past are too hard to overcome. Just believe in yourself. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. Nothing is too hard. Nothing is too far.

"I stare at my reflection in the mirror. Why am I doing this to myself? Losing my mind on a tiny error, I nearly left my real self on the shelf." - Jessie J

Last night I said that when I look into the mirror, I no longer see the amazing girl I used to be. Just a lost girl with no sense of direction and definitely no life. Boy was I wrong. I know I am still there somewhere. I am like a glass. Well formed and refined, left out the too long all covered in dust. That is why I lost myself. I just need to clean myself up. Wash the dust away. I'll stand out like how I used to be. A beautiful piece of art among many beautiful piece of arts.

I AM ME! ONE OF A KIND. BEAUTIFULLY CREATED. I just need to remind myself of that.

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well” (Psalm 139:14)

God does not look at the appearance as “man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7)

He also doesn’t look at the “beauty that is fleeting,” but at the “woman who fears the Lord” (Proverbs 31:3)

“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s eyes” (1 Peter 3:3-4)

The secret is to "TRUST IN HIM". && perhaps it's time I not only SAY that I trust in God but really, just give in to him && let God be the one to guide me in all that I say and do. Perhaps, in time I'll see the beauty in me as the Lord has created from the very beginning.

Menstrual

It is already known to the world that us, females, undergo a releasing of blood every month also know as menstruation. Yes, we all heard about the pain and stress DURING menstrual and only some knows about the existence of Pre-Menstrul Syndrome (PMS).

The following is a group of symptoms known to be associated with women suffering from a condition that affects their menses cycle. These are referred to as premenstrual syndrome, or PMS symptoms. They are known to occur about a week or two prior to the menstruation, and they are known to cease just before the menstrual period commences.

The PMS Symptoms Include;

• Stomach upsets, swelling, diarrhea or constipation
• headaches
• Changes in anxiety or depression or food cravings
• Breast swelling and tenderness
• Anxiety or depression
• Fatigue and trouble sleeping
• Joint or muscle pain
• Stress, irritability, mood swings
• Lack of concentration

Alright, so now that you know about the PMS & the menstrual on it's own, HAVE YOU HEARD OF A THING CALLED POST-MENSTRUAL SYNDROME?! That's right. Many women complains to be having the same symptoms even AFTER their period. Which is a bummer if I may say so myself. But heck, we do. && most times it last for at least a whole week. Which really sucks. So how about we do a little maths here :-

Pre-Menstrual Syndrome :- ONE or TWO weeks.
Menstrual :- THREE to EIGHT days (ONE week)
Post-Menstrual Syndrome :- ONE week

Total physical & mental stress :- FOUR weeks (at least) = 1 Month.

There are 12 months in a years therefore we have to go through dramatic changes every month of the year which makes it EVERYDAY of OUR LIVES!!! So tell me boys, WHO THE HECK ARE YOU TO TELL US THAT WE ARE BEING TOO EMOTIONAL?! You're not the one with a bloody crime scene in your pants && you're definitely NOT the one to be bleeding a whole Red Sea out of your genitals.

So do yourself a favor and hold our hands and smile when we're being emotional cause that is nothing compared to when we actually GO CRAZY :)

Don't say I didn't warn ya. Much lovessss <3

Bibliography:-
http://postmenstrualsyndrome.com/postmenstrualsyndrome
http://www.always-health.com/womenshealth_post_menstrual.html
http://www.always-health.com/womenshealth_menstruation.html

Must Get Wii :)

This I must get! I mean it! I need this! Like seriously!! Like zomg!! :) Why? Because! There is no WHY YOU NEED WII! You just do!

I NEED! :O

Kat Von D

"Leaving people marked with tattoos that boggle minds with their meticulous precision, Kat Von D is not only the most gorgeous tattoo artist on the planet, she's arguably the best" - Steve-O

My favorite Kat Von D's tattoo:-

Distraught

“Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake someone else up, so that they can feel this way, too.” —Lemony Snicket

Skype

It was a good one. I'm glad we got to say what we've been keeping inside. It helps ease half the pain I was going through. Least the mental torture stopped. Though, it has made me a lot stronger. Having to face you directly while expressing all that's hidden within. It was good, I must admit. I've missed you. && it helps me not have to miss you all that much which in this case I'm sure you'd be happy to know. This is by far the BEST BREAK-OFF I've had && it's going good so far. I mean, instead of putting me down, you are there by my side. Holding me up, supporting me. Teaching me how to let you go. Honestly, it does makes it harder with you there and all. But it's a lot healthier for me. At least I think so. I don't want to shut down again. It takes much more effort to reboot my system if I shut down completely. Up to now, I'm just glad. Glad that you haven't pulled the plug on me. Thank you. Really. Thank you ;')

I promise I'll try harder. Just don't give up one me.

Change.

This is me now. A whole other person. Back then, I used to think that the world revolved around me. I think otherwise now, because things change. People change. && in time, so did I. I am me. Nothing more, nothing less. Just one lost girl, trying to find her place in this world.

Ah, yes. This is me now. A little less loud, a little less proud. Just another face in the crowd.

Renovation

I've decided to keep this blog and instead of leaving it as it is. Like a home, I've been doing some renovation. *Mom just got back from buying ice-cream* oohh!! Anyways, as I was saying, this is something completely new. I mean the blog name's different. So has my url changed.

www.silentwhispersofabeatingheart.blogspot.com

This is me now. && if you've been following me since a long time ago and like what you've read, this might be a major change. For some, this might be the end of your loyal readership while others might find it a fresh new twist to the old style of writing.

Whatever it is, this is still me && everything I write still comes straight from that pee-wee brain of mine that autopilots most of the time. All in all, welcome back.

Keep Sakes.

I guess I've decided to keep this. A new beginning it shall be but the past should be kept. A wise man told me that I should never ditch the past as it has made me into the person I am now. && his word is true. I guess I'm keeping this blog but I'll be renovating. Tomorrow perhaps. Because only then I am able to LOOK BACK AND SEE HOW MUCH I'VE GROWN.

Moving.

I'm considering moving out. Starting a new blog. Something fresh in order to leave the past behind. Should I? Or should I just keep this blog. As in, continue it here but do my changes here as well.

Dilemma dilemma.

Realization

You know what?! I noticed that some of my post have TOO MUCH PICTURES. Lol, Maybe that's why it's so boring. How to make my blog more interesting lah? I have no one to bitch about anymore. No more crazy teenage drama. No more crisis and stuff. How lahhh? :O

Xxo, ever yours,
Virginie Laurency

Slipping Back Into Depression :'(

It's never gonna leave me alone. I will never be happy for long. Guess that's just the way life is for me.

Xx. Ever yours,
Virginie Laurency

Left Behind :O

Whoaaa, things have been really hectic lately. Although I'm learning on juggling my time, I still have to set priorities. Right now, I'm wayyy behind all my assignments and yes, class has just only begun :O Since RYLA presentation is out of the way (Done it today, and I was good), time to focus on more serious stuffs like :-

1. Installing Adobe into my lappie. (URGENT!! - Tomorrow)
   
2. READ Chapter One of my Feature Writing text book.
3. Write a 500 word essay on your childhood based on geography. (Deadline : Thursday)
   
4. READ all the other story articles given by Sharaad.
5. Create logo for PR & Events Management class project.
6. Categorize my notes on Magazine & Newspapers for Fundamentals of Publishing.
7. Update my idea scrapbook for Feature Writing.
8. Idea Conceptualization assignments.
9. Finish Choreographing final dance.
10. Choreograph Intro dance.
11. Choreograph routine based on cheer/chants/dance (URGENT - deadline : 3 weeks)

Basically, I'm dead. Gotta start really sooooon.

Xx, Ever yours,
Virginie Laurency.

RYLA 2010-2011 :)

WHAT IS ROTARY YOUTH LEADERSHIP AWARDS (RYLA)?

• A leadership program coordinated by Rotary Club
• Youngsters aged from 14-30 are sponsored by Rotary Club to attend the event.
• RYLA format vary from district to district but commonly take the form of a seminar, camp, or workshop.

RYLA AIMS TO :-

• Demonstrate respect & concern for youths.
• Provide an effective training experience for selected youths and potential leaders.
• Encourages leadership of youth, by youth.
• Recognize publicly young people who are rendering service to their communities.

CORE TOPICS THAT RYLA COVERS :-

• Fundamentals of Leadership
• Ethics of Positive Leadership
• Importance of Communication Skills & Effective Leadership
• Problem-Solving and Crisis Management
• Rotary's Purpose & Service To The Community
• Building Self-Esteem & Self-Confidence
• Elements of Community & Global Citizenship

So, That was a brief explanation about WHAT RYLA IS, now to the juicy part. This years RYLA was held at....

Jyeah, It's at Kuala Selangor :- De Palma Hotel

Such a beautiful place. This is where we stayed.

Our rooms, Cozy enough for me and my roommate

The ballroom where almost everything took place.

REGISTRATION


GETTING TO KNOW YOU :)


OPENING CEREMONY

State & Country Representative

The "BIG" People I'm suppose to know

Fellow participants listening to the speech

GROUP PHOTOGRAPHY


ICE BRAKING

This is my team : The Yellow Mellow Marshmellow Hello Potato

Errr, ???

I think this is called CHAIRS.

TELEMATCH

Break the watermelon && it it with bare hands

Fill up bottle with water from pool without using container

Getting sweet from a bowl of flour without using hands

Discussing the facilitator's punishment

JUNGLE TREKKING

Group photo after Jungle Trekking

YOGA EXERCISE

Miss Iris, teaching us Yoga

AIKIDO TRAINING

Showing respect to Sensei Selvarajah

Some demonstrations

&& now we get to kick in some moves.

GROUP SESSIONS WITH FACILITATORS

Peri-Peri Chilli Hot & Sexy (RED) - How Can Youth Contribute To Natural Disaster Relief

Purple Strings (Purple) - Equal Rights of Transsexuals

Pink Panthers (Pink) - Smoke, Alcohol & Drug Abuse Among Youths

Doraemon (Brown) - Child & Social Abuse

Greyhounds (Grey) - Advantage & Disadvantage of Sex Education

Yellow Mellow Marshmellow Hello Potato (Yellow) - Abortion & Baby Dumping

INSPIRATIONAL TALKS

Mr John - Security & Awareness

President Gerard - Sex & Crime

Dr Siva - The Power of One

Raj Ridvan Singh - Fundamentals of Leadership

Mdm Mary - Ethics & Leadership

FREE TIME

President Gerard talking to us about our futures

We definitely enjoy swimming day and night!

TALENT NIGHT!

Peri Peri Chilli Hot & Sexy's Sketch

Purple Strings' Dance

Doraemon's Song

Yellow Mellow Marshmellow Hello Potato's Sketch

Greyhounds' Song

Pink Panthers' Dance

We won the talent show ;)

CLOSING CEREMONY

Presented with the leadership award :)

Best Male Participant

Best Female Participant

Final Group picture before saying goodbye :)

p/s: RYLA was extremely interesting. Believe me when I say do. Do join next year's camp :)

Xx, Ever Yours,
Virginie Laurency