I Am Beautiful. Always.

♥ yourself.

"Cause when it all boils down at the end of the day, it's what you do and say that makes you who you are today. Makes you think about it, think about it. Doesn't it? Sometimes, all it takes is just one voice." - Natasha Bedingfield

Yes. You are who you are and you should not regret your past. No ghost of the past are too hard to overcome. Just believe in yourself. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. Nothing is too hard. Nothing is too far.

"I stare at my reflection in the mirror. Why am I doing this to myself? Losing my mind on a tiny error, I nearly left my real self on the shelf." - Jessie J

Last night I said that when I look into the mirror, I no longer see the amazing girl I used to be. Just a lost girl with no sense of direction and definitely no life. Boy was I wrong. I know I am still there somewhere. I am like a glass. Well formed and refined, left out the too long all covered in dust. That is why I lost myself. I just need to clean myself up. Wash the dust away. I'll stand out like how I used to be. A beautiful piece of art among many beautiful piece of arts.

I AM ME! ONE OF A KIND. BEAUTIFULLY CREATED. I just need to remind myself of that.

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well” (Psalm 139:14)

God does not look at the appearance as “man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7)

He also doesn’t look at the “beauty that is fleeting,” but at the “woman who fears the Lord” (Proverbs 31:3)

“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s eyes” (1 Peter 3:3-4)

The secret is to "TRUST IN HIM". && perhaps it's time I not only SAY that I trust in God but really, just give in to him && let God be the one to guide me in all that I say and do. Perhaps, in time I'll see the beauty in me as the Lord has created from the very beginning.

Menstrual

It is already known to the world that us, females, undergo a releasing of blood every month also know as menstruation. Yes, we all heard about the pain and stress DURING menstrual and only some knows about the existence of Pre-Menstrul Syndrome (PMS).

The following is a group of symptoms known to be associated with women suffering from a condition that affects their menses cycle. These are referred to as premenstrual syndrome, or PMS symptoms. They are known to occur about a week or two prior to the menstruation, and they are known to cease just before the menstrual period commences.

The PMS Symptoms Include;

• Stomach upsets, swelling, diarrhea or constipation
• headaches
• Changes in anxiety or depression or food cravings
• Breast swelling and tenderness
• Anxiety or depression
• Fatigue and trouble sleeping
• Joint or muscle pain
• Stress, irritability, mood swings
• Lack of concentration

Alright, so now that you know about the PMS & the menstrual on it's own, HAVE YOU HEARD OF A THING CALLED POST-MENSTRUAL SYNDROME?! That's right. Many women complains to be having the same symptoms even AFTER their period. Which is a bummer if I may say so myself. But heck, we do. && most times it last for at least a whole week. Which really sucks. So how about we do a little maths here :-

Pre-Menstrual Syndrome :- ONE or TWO weeks.
Menstrual :- THREE to EIGHT days (ONE week)
Post-Menstrual Syndrome :- ONE week

Total physical & mental stress :- FOUR weeks (at least) = 1 Month.

There are 12 months in a years therefore we have to go through dramatic changes every month of the year which makes it EVERYDAY of OUR LIVES!!! So tell me boys, WHO THE HECK ARE YOU TO TELL US THAT WE ARE BEING TOO EMOTIONAL?! You're not the one with a bloody crime scene in your pants && you're definitely NOT the one to be bleeding a whole Red Sea out of your genitals.

So do yourself a favor and hold our hands and smile when we're being emotional cause that is nothing compared to when we actually GO CRAZY :)

Don't say I didn't warn ya. Much lovessss <3

Bibliography:-
http://postmenstrualsyndrome.com/postmenstrualsyndrome
http://www.always-health.com/womenshealth_post_menstrual.html
http://www.always-health.com/womenshealth_menstruation.html

Must Get Wii :)

This I must get! I mean it! I need this! Like seriously!! Like zomg!! :) Why? Because! There is no WHY YOU NEED WII! You just do!

I NEED! :O

Kat Von D

"Leaving people marked with tattoos that boggle minds with their meticulous precision, Kat Von D is not only the most gorgeous tattoo artist on the planet, she's arguably the best" - Steve-O

My favorite Kat Von D's tattoo:-

Distraught

“Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake someone else up, so that they can feel this way, too.” —Lemony Snicket

Skype

It was a good one. I'm glad we got to say what we've been keeping inside. It helps ease half the pain I was going through. Least the mental torture stopped. Though, it has made me a lot stronger. Having to face you directly while expressing all that's hidden within. It was good, I must admit. I've missed you. && it helps me not have to miss you all that much which in this case I'm sure you'd be happy to know. This is by far the BEST BREAK-OFF I've had && it's going good so far. I mean, instead of putting me down, you are there by my side. Holding me up, supporting me. Teaching me how to let you go. Honestly, it does makes it harder with you there and all. But it's a lot healthier for me. At least I think so. I don't want to shut down again. It takes much more effort to reboot my system if I shut down completely. Up to now, I'm just glad. Glad that you haven't pulled the plug on me. Thank you. Really. Thank you ;')

I promise I'll try harder. Just don't give up one me.

Change.

This is me now. A whole other person. Back then, I used to think that the world revolved around me. I think otherwise now, because things change. People change. && in time, so did I. I am me. Nothing more, nothing less. Just one lost girl, trying to find her place in this world.

Ah, yes. This is me now. A little less loud, a little less proud. Just another face in the crowd.

Renovation

I've decided to keep this blog and instead of leaving it as it is. Like a home, I've been doing some renovation. *Mom just got back from buying ice-cream* oohh!! Anyways, as I was saying, this is something completely new. I mean the blog name's different. So has my url changed.

www.silentwhispersofabeatingheart.blogspot.com

This is me now. && if you've been following me since a long time ago and like what you've read, this might be a major change. For some, this might be the end of your loyal readership while others might find it a fresh new twist to the old style of writing.

Whatever it is, this is still me && everything I write still comes straight from that pee-wee brain of mine that autopilots most of the time. All in all, welcome back.

Keep Sakes.

I guess I've decided to keep this. A new beginning it shall be but the past should be kept. A wise man told me that I should never ditch the past as it has made me into the person I am now. && his word is true. I guess I'm keeping this blog but I'll be renovating. Tomorrow perhaps. Because only then I am able to LOOK BACK AND SEE HOW MUCH I'VE GROWN.

Moving.

I'm considering moving out. Starting a new blog. Something fresh in order to leave the past behind. Should I? Or should I just keep this blog. As in, continue it here but do my changes here as well.

Dilemma dilemma.